弃权* / 3:43 PM

I have got so much in me , most of it making me stupid or else proving me silly.I reckon that nothing is going to help even if i get the words out of my chest.And especially when there is no other parties out there that would understand it.

I picked up my things from his house this morning.I don't know how i manage to convince myself that it's for the better.It's most saddening when i had to lied that i had just cleared my wardrobe when his mum ask , " 你家里没有衣服了吗"? All the memories came back as i shove through my clothes, especially when i came across my secondary school skirt.I left bb,xx and s there despite really wanting to take them back.But if i did , i know they will just participate as an unfinished reminder of you.

There's so much i wanted to tell you ,but i know there's no point since you are the one who made this choice.I cannot understand why I am crying because somebody else want to put this relationship to a halt.true to my heart,i didn't betray this relationship nor give it up but i am behaving like someone at fault.I felt like emptying the red box into the garbage , felt that i shouldn't have deserve this but each time i only ended up with my face in my hands.So what if i can't put down all of his promises ,i don't wanna make him feel worse anymore.I don't want to remind him about any of them anymore even if he had long forgotten them.It's hard when i have to fake my smile to let you know i respect your decision happily.

& why must i still try so hard to cover my unhappiness just so you could feel better ? Don't you know that your happiness is at the expense of my happiness?

It's like being attacked by a thousand pins first at the heart and then in the eyes every night.

Finally eighteen although i do not look my age .I am a miniature machine gun.can be real noisy and high at times.more to outdoors.

I am currently studying in Republic Poly and don't ask me why i ended up here.but afterall i have meet some great and fun friends here :) at times i look at my horoscope and decide on how i should spend my day.I may view situations in complex thinking and a thousand possible outcomes.
I feel short but i don't mind people disturbing me as long as it makes them happy haha.but still of course i still want to grow taller if you have any elixir please recommend to me .

Yeah one thing i dislike it when people take unnecessary plastic bags , please save the world and yourself by taking less of these and especially wooden chopsticks!!I like to observe people,just to study their behaviour to predict their next move :) but i am not psychotic !I just wish i could take up psychology
I am beginning to see this world to the best of my ability.
I am really trying to look at the bright side.


I truly like ballet,and somehow i always wish i could dance again but i know i can't afford to do that.
I like reading novels , so far the best must have been "The notebook ,Dear John and Where rainbows end" particularly from Nicholas Sparks and Cecelia Ahern.
for your information i really like eating cakes, those with heavy toppings of cream yum yum :p it has been rather long since i had them really often.

I can really laugh over the slightest thing when my laugh-o-meter goes extremely high .No need to describe how I am a really clumsy person and i trip over the weirdest things..




there's alot of things which i wish i could do , i wanna go up and float around on the hot air balloon and fly somewhere far for awhile

see you there at Bahamas!!

弃权* / 3:43 PM

I have got so much in me , most of it making me stupid or else proving me silly.I reckon that nothing is going to help even if i get the words out of my chest.And especially when there is no other parties out there that would understand it.

I picked up my things from his house this morning.I don't know how i manage to convince myself that it's for the better.It's most saddening when i had to lied that i had just cleared my wardrobe when his mum ask , " 你家里没有衣服了吗"? All the memories came back as i shove through my clothes, especially when i came across my secondary school skirt.I left bb,xx and s there despite really wanting to take them back.But if i did , i know they will just participate as an unfinished reminder of you.

There's so much i wanted to tell you ,but i know there's no point since you are the one who made this choice.I cannot understand why I am crying because somebody else want to put this relationship to a halt.true to my heart,i didn't betray this relationship nor give it up but i am behaving like someone at fault.I felt like emptying the red box into the garbage , felt that i shouldn't have deserve this but each time i only ended up with my face in my hands.So what if i can't put down all of his promises ,i don't wanna make him feel worse anymore.I don't want to remind him about any of them anymore even if he had long forgotten them.It's hard when i have to fake my smile to let you know i respect your decision happily.

& why must i still try so hard to cover my unhappiness just so you could feel better ? Don't you know that your happiness is at the expense of my happiness?

It's like being attacked by a thousand pins first at the heart and then in the eyes every night.