Look at my heart again
Look at the mess I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
Because
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again
My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because
Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you
♠my taste of sunshine
A pair of spectacles
Manchester United jersey
Catch a ballet performance
Pointe shoes
Adidas Kenya Jacket
Singapore flyer
Superstar Virgo trip
Open a savings bank account
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The way i see the lines build up on my eyes isn't a good sign.and sigh most of the days that pass , i dont even have a clue what actually is the difference between yesterday and today for practically the whole week.I could only remember the pills i took , the visits to the doctor , many times spend alone with my thoughts at the carpark and the tears that i swiped away.I didn't ,couldn't wish for anyone to be here beside me mainly because i don't know what they could really do.And no one can really understands my point of view now.Even the one that more than half my heart has gone to. And all i wish is to be alone.But sometimes when i am alone i become scared.
I drink my cough mixture just to make sure i get drowsy and sleep through every night.My appetite's gone.. the only reason i eat is because i know i need to run my body.But sometimes i wish i wasn't thinking alot.I have been going to the carpark downstairs and to the 4th level always just to look at where bf use to stand at 2 years back ..when we talk on the phone and i'll stand at the window ..i would look down and see him there.It's funny..I can sit and stoned for hours leaning against the cold wall with my ears plugged in.I guess most of the times i was just letting the air pollute my mind.
I have run all the thoughts through my thick skull.It's not that i dont know what to do or i dont want to listen to any advice.I know what's right or what's wrong.It's just that there isn't any motivating factor to continue doing some things.
I can see my lungs calling for help.. like me..
don't give me up tonight or soon nothing will be right at all
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Finally eighteen although i do not look my age .I am a miniature machine gun.can be real noisy and high at times.more to outdoors.
I am currently studying in Republic Poly and don't ask me why i ended up here.but afterall i have meet some great and fun friends here :) at times i look at my horoscope and decide on how i should spend my day.I may view situations in complex thinking and a thousand possible outcomes. I feel short but i don't mind people disturbing me as long as it makes them happy haha.but still of course i still want to grow taller if you have any elixir please recommend to me .
Yeah one thing i dislike it when people take unnecessary plastic bags , please save the world and yourself by taking less of these and especially wooden chopsticks!!I like to observe people,just to study their behaviour to predict their next move :) but i am not psychotic !I just wish i could take up psychology I am beginning to see this world to the best of my ability. I am really trying to look at the bright side.
I truly like ballet,and somehow i always wish i could dance again but i know i can't afford to do that.
I like reading novels , so far the best must have been "The notebook ,Dear John and Where rainbows end" particularly from Nicholas Sparks and Cecelia Ahern. for your information i really like eating cakes, those with heavy toppings of cream yum yum :p it has been rather long since i had them really often.
I can really laugh over the slightest thing when my laugh-o-meter goes extremely high .No need to describe how I am a really clumsy person and i trip over the weirdest things..
there's alot of things which i wish i could do , i wanna go up and float around on the hot air balloon and fly somewhere far for awhile
The way i see the lines build up on my eyes isn't a good sign.and sigh most of the days that pass , i dont even have a clue what actually is the difference between yesterday and today for practically the whole week.I could only remember the pills i took , the visits to the doctor , many times spend alone with my thoughts at the carpark and the tears that i swiped away.I didn't ,couldn't wish for anyone to be here beside me mainly because i don't know what they could really do.And no one can really understands my point of view now.Even the one that more than half my heart has gone to. And all i wish is to be alone.But sometimes when i am alone i become scared.
I drink my cough mixture just to make sure i get drowsy and sleep through every night.My appetite's gone.. the only reason i eat is because i know i need to run my body.But sometimes i wish i wasn't thinking alot.I have been going to the carpark downstairs and to the 4th level always just to look at where bf use to stand at 2 years back ..when we talk on the phone and i'll stand at the window ..i would look down and see him there.It's funny..I can sit and stoned for hours leaning against the cold wall with my ears plugged in.I guess most of the times i was just letting the air pollute my mind.
I have run all the thoughts through my thick skull.It's not that i dont know what to do or i dont want to listen to any advice.I know what's right or what's wrong.It's just that there isn't any motivating factor to continue doing some things.
I can see my lungs calling for help.. like me..
don't give me up tonight or soon nothing will be right at all
