another valentine*.. / 11:44 PM

I feel hollow now.still breathing.. slowly but soulless.I thought i had became immuned ..to crying and all the thoughts running in my head. that was what i thought..but .. nope.I think i'm still not hitting that stage yet.It's gonna be a long way.

Last night was horrible.Went liver poisoning with Tracy at Studio six.I drank tiger till i think my stomach kind of hated me.Of course the lungs got involved too.And the best part was getting drunk.. my head was spinning like i was on a carousel.and carousel rides should be a happy but not this.I felt like i was going around on a 120 KILOMETERR per HOUR carousel instead.I didn't go home yesterday.. tracy needed to go off and i made her promised she won't send me home.So off the cab went to bf's house.i vomit and vomitted throughout even when i was lying on the bed.It was awful.My phone died and there wasn't anyone i couldn't contact and i dont think i wanted to contact anyone else as well.Thanks to Tracy,he called and made bf agreed to me going over.but he didn't come fetch me because he probably didn't want to stop playing poker over at his friend's.I don't know which route the driver took , just that it made me giddier and the cab cost was $29.90.bf's mom and brother came down to look for me.And the best part was the taxi driver alighted me at the wrong block and i tried to figure the memorised image of the block. i was walking like a zombie most of the time while beer oozed out of me.

I tried to keep myself sober despite all the notorious spinning.Plucked my contacts out and goes almost dead on the bed.I didn't even change.I was lying down and still vomitting.Time was running all the way..I woke every now and then and fumbled around for bf's presence.Until i think when 5.30am came, i was awoken by the key and locks outside..

it's over today.. all my pleadings and beggings.. worst thing was to see him get stressed or frustrating and even moodless.like i am torturing him. even his tears.I decided to let go.. so go and be happy.I wanted to get you the braun buffel wallet for valentine for quite some time.. but i am really broke so gave you a simple construction helmet with initials instead.It's the last valentine gift i guess.. for the time being..i am tired.. the feeling of drunkness comes again..

Finally eighteen although i do not look my age .I am a miniature machine gun.can be real noisy and high at times.more to outdoors.

I am currently studying in Republic Poly and don't ask me why i ended up here.but afterall i have meet some great and fun friends here :) at times i look at my horoscope and decide on how i should spend my day.I may view situations in complex thinking and a thousand possible outcomes.
I feel short but i don't mind people disturbing me as long as it makes them happy haha.but still of course i still want to grow taller if you have any elixir please recommend to me .

Yeah one thing i dislike it when people take unnecessary plastic bags , please save the world and yourself by taking less of these and especially wooden chopsticks!!I like to observe people,just to study their behaviour to predict their next move :) but i am not psychotic !I just wish i could take up psychology
I am beginning to see this world to the best of my ability.
I am really trying to look at the bright side.


I truly like ballet,and somehow i always wish i could dance again but i know i can't afford to do that.
I like reading novels , so far the best must have been "The notebook ,Dear John and Where rainbows end" particularly from Nicholas Sparks and Cecelia Ahern.
for your information i really like eating cakes, those with heavy toppings of cream yum yum :p it has been rather long since i had them really often.

I can really laugh over the slightest thing when my laugh-o-meter goes extremely high .No need to describe how I am a really clumsy person and i trip over the weirdest things..




there's alot of things which i wish i could do , i wanna go up and float around on the hot air balloon and fly somewhere far for awhile

see you there at Bahamas!!

another valentine*.. / 11:44 PM

I feel hollow now.still breathing.. slowly but soulless.I thought i had became immuned ..to crying and all the thoughts running in my head. that was what i thought..but .. nope.I think i'm still not hitting that stage yet.It's gonna be a long way.

Last night was horrible.Went liver poisoning with Tracy at Studio six.I drank tiger till i think my stomach kind of hated me.Of course the lungs got involved too.And the best part was getting drunk.. my head was spinning like i was on a carousel.and carousel rides should be a happy but not this.I felt like i was going around on a 120 KILOMETERR per HOUR carousel instead.I didn't go home yesterday.. tracy needed to go off and i made her promised she won't send me home.So off the cab went to bf's house.i vomit and vomitted throughout even when i was lying on the bed.It was awful.My phone died and there wasn't anyone i couldn't contact and i dont think i wanted to contact anyone else as well.Thanks to Tracy,he called and made bf agreed to me going over.but he didn't come fetch me because he probably didn't want to stop playing poker over at his friend's.I don't know which route the driver took , just that it made me giddier and the cab cost was $29.90.bf's mom and brother came down to look for me.And the best part was the taxi driver alighted me at the wrong block and i tried to figure the memorised image of the block. i was walking like a zombie most of the time while beer oozed out of me.

I tried to keep myself sober despite all the notorious spinning.Plucked my contacts out and goes almost dead on the bed.I didn't even change.I was lying down and still vomitting.Time was running all the way..I woke every now and then and fumbled around for bf's presence.Until i think when 5.30am came, i was awoken by the key and locks outside..

it's over today.. all my pleadings and beggings.. worst thing was to see him get stressed or frustrating and even moodless.like i am torturing him. even his tears.I decided to let go.. so go and be happy.I wanted to get you the braun buffel wallet for valentine for quite some time.. but i am really broke so gave you a simple construction helmet with initials instead.It's the last valentine gift i guess.. for the time being..i am tired.. the feeling of drunkness comes again..