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Gonna look this way

Look at my heart again
Look at the mess I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
Because

All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again

My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because

Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you
♠my taste of sunshine

A pair of spectacles
Manchester United jersey
Catch a ballet performance
Pointe shoes
Adidas Kenya Jacket
Singapore flyer
Superstar Virgo trip
Open a savings bank account
Powershot e1 !!
pitter patter



♠/ FLABBERGAST
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02 January, 2009
dear mom.. / 11:18 PM

/it seems the new year ain't going any better.I couldn't stand the nagging voice which turned irritating.I can tolerate for a year or two but it really angst me when she keeps repeating something that is alarming to me.

Mom is forever unhappy with me .I cannot understand the logic she believes in .And also simply how i always look like the black sheep because she says so.When all the guys in my family don't stay out till late..it doesn't mean i shoudn't too .. just because i am a girl ?I can't believe she said i threw her face and what others said meant so much to her .How is it that when I hanged out late that people out there will start gossiping.And i really knew where she got all her accusations and stereotypings from and it really upsets me.

Because to me ,you don't look at a friend who isn't much educated to determine whether she's an influence especially when you mention a bad one.Don't rack up the past of truancy in school and say that i have turn rotten ever ever ever since and also especially the one event that happened during primary school when i skipped swimming lesson to go ice skating.

And when i work , i don't stretch my hands to get a penny from you.Even when i was younger ,when everyone would get money from their parents to catch a movie or for leisure spending on weekends ,or even .. extra money to spend for the week, i don't.But all that ever came in to your head was that this is obligation .

One more thing is compiling work and recreation together.Both seems like me enjoying outside.I can stay at home and hog the computers like my brothers alright if it means staying put at home, i don't need to work like a bull outside.I pay my own bills ,and all that makes up my wardrobe is almost entirely the money i earned.But i simply need a breather out of this house because my room looks nothing like privacy.And the house seems nothing but a commando camp at times and i am the only one asked to do so.I can bear this when i am younger but i can't stand that the silbings are always better off relaxing and i am always the one ordered around.

I have never shrugged my shoulders this way before and i don't know what is this i am feeling now..totally screwed..i should stop typing , i don't want to mention this anymore :(

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